“What if there isn’t enough time to give her what she deserves do you think if I begged the sky hard enough my mother’s soul would return to me as my daughter so I can give her the comfort she gave me my whole life" - Rupi Kaur”
There would never be enough time in my mothers life that I can give back to her. There would never be enough moments in her life where I can do everything for her. Before I was even born she did everything for me, before she knew who I was she killed her entire life for me. A life that took her away from her home, took her away from her family and pushed her to the other side of the world just for a new outcome in her children’s lives. She killed her entire life for me knowing that I was soon going to bloom into a flower who needed water and not gunshots, who needed sun and not fire, who needed love and not war. I wish I could give everything back to her and return what she has done for me, but the fact is I can’t. Even imagining what my mother went through is something I myself can’t fully comprehend. So how am I suppose to give her everything, if I myself don’t know truly what she gave me. I know that if my mother did not leave Kurdistan and leave the war I would not be here, I know that if my mother did not illegally cross over into Greece for the hopes of a better life for her family I would not be here. The sacrifices that my mother did slowly killed her life, her home in Kurdistan and her spirits for her return. The sacrifices that my mother did, which had killed her life did birth her children into a life that had everything and more. Birthed a life that my mother could not comprehend, but knew it was nothing like her life and that is what she wanted.
There will never be enough time for my mother to get what she deserves, not enough words that can allow my mother to get what she deserves, and not enough things to get what she deserves. What my mother did is unimaginable. What my mother did is indescribable. I hope that my life itself and what my mother did for me to be birthed in a country that echoes freedom with open arms is enough for her. I hope that once I walk down to graduate in June and receive my degrees it will be enough for her. I hope that once I give back to the country that birthed her, the village that raised her, and the people that nurtured her it will be enough for her because she has always been more than enough for me.
Dedicated to my Mother, Happy Mothers Day!
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